Confused and not sure if I can really believe him

I was with a boyfriend of mine for a little over a year and it was pretty rough at the beginning. He really never asked me any questions or seemed to keen on getting to know me at first. I thought maybe he just did not know how or was maybe nervous. After a couple months I had severe kidney stones and my son came down with bronchitis and I never heard from him or saw him which is strange since he worked right in town where I am at (he lived about 40 miles away) and would not even stop by. I had to ask him one day to bring me some bottled water and he slipped me the receipt and I paid him. When I talk to him about it (calmly) he would get defensive and say he had to work. He used to talk to about this girl he used to work with an awful lot and when I confronted him he did do everything he could to reassure me that it was nothing and that he didn't even notice. Then he started putting this girl down after that (which was strange as well). For Valentines Day he never called and never stopped by.. his response was that he took me out the night before (to a bar). Later on he seemed to change a little but I was tired by this point and felt I had to fight for everything and craved something more natural from a man. He then recently told me that he needed time to become a better man for me and desires to grow old with me someday.. and I agreed it was time to break the relationship. He freaked out and was like: "No! I don't want to lose you. I want to have a better friendship so that we can start over and do things the right way" I have not called him or pursued him at all and there have been no calls from him as well. His mom used to call us on dates and he would break dates with me claiming he had something else planned with his friends (like their birthdays). He would never invite me until the last minute and being a single mom I could never pick up and go.. he never included me in on his life... he was really loving and great when he was with me and then there was nothing sweet in the in between times.. I believe he did not cheat.. yet I am starting to move on and want to get a man's perspective on this guy. I looked over what to look for and well.. when he touched me it was gentle and moving and well... he was excited to be with me I could tell... I am busy picking the pieces up that he left and I have a feeling that he thinks I will just be there when he is ready to love me the way I need... I feel dishonored and well.. lied to. Am I right or wrong?

** After a fight we had for a week of not speaking he comes over and says he wants to talk about it. i was excited that he for once wanted to take initiative to talk about something about us. he comes over with leftover cheeseballs. he ordered at work that day at noon and by the time he got to my house at 8 that night. He does not have a fridge where he works. He handed them to me and said "I didn't want these anymore so I thought you might want them?" I was appalled and hurt... and he said he was tired and left quickly after that. I did all of the pursuing and I am drained.. is it wrong for me as a woman to now want to be pursued a little and romanced? Are there really great guys out there because I am losing my hope.... Thanks for the masculine insight!!